Wednesday, August 22, 2007 // 11:47 PM
prelims are coming. and after tune it's gonna be my o's. taking it for the second time but the feeling is jus so raw. so new. so fresh. but my contents for evey subject is all so mild. i've left veri lil time. people are pushing n rushing me to get up and study till i drop. especially him. ppl encourage and push. he push and scold and blame.and maybe alil encourage. why are u so fierce towards me. treat me slightly better ain't difficult rite. oh well. i know u meant well but. maybe i can't really accept the feeling now. i'll adapt to it soon JUS FOR THE PAPERS. aftr papers no more such nonsence frm u. get it?! :)) loves.
btw, why shld mock tests be given jus 1 wk before when we're gonna be sitting for our prelims soon? ain't it a waste of paper and time? jus sit for the prelims lar! -.- mofos~ jus as well. history is the worst i tink. 2 mock tests. double -.- SHE simply freaks me out. i still rmb her quarreling over the mobile with mum. mum said : "why do u wana call the parent when u don't even trust them?" silence was all mum recieved aftr she said that. SHE thereaftr said. :" than if she doesn't do well for her humanities don't blame me." mum: " i didn't say i'll blame u!" omfg!! mum is so farking zai can! when she ringed me over on the phone, i was rushing for lessons at novena, when she told me abt it, i swear if there was a chance, i'll jus laugh my ass off in public. too bad din hav the courage to lar. i onli managed a giggle and smile. :(( i rmb she still came to class the nxt lesson telling us she'll jus scream over the fone telling the parents off without giving face. BUT! who was the one telling HER off without giving her face when she called mummy and even kept silent!? :))) u all noe the ans.
i do self reflections. at times like todae while waiting for buses to head hm. everytime i think abt it i actually think abt my papers at the end of the year. i tink abt HIM. i tink abt family. these 3 are my biggest worries. oh man! also money lar!! farking broke. bank's money is DEcreasing and likewise my drawer money! darn. :( can i ask for a mind-reading machine for my upcoming birthdaY? it's gonna be something i nid alot man. anyone??
the longest word-y post aftr so long. :))
last but not least.
loves to baby etwk. :))