i'm feeling alrite todae... hmmm... had lesser slip in sch todae.. maybe cause had a beta slip last nite ba.. sliping lesser in sch is a great achievement fer mi... wohoho0o... gud gud... haaS... anyway i'm reali so damn bluddy pissed wif moi sumbody lo.. cum bac frm recess.. jus asking wad they d0ing den he ans mi lik wana die lik tat.. sae -wad not haapie ar.. go bath la..- come on la .. excuse mi lo.. i didn't sae anything lei.. i onli ask him wad are they doing den he sae one big chunk of rubbish... fcuk la... ans until lik tat.. might as well dun talk.. stupid idiot la..talk until lik tat.. if u are lo0king at moi blog and u noe u are the one.. pls la.. go reflect on ur attitude okai... den after tat... went for assembly.. saw thoes dancers tat came to perform in our sch.. den dance until so pr0 sia.. style.. haa.. den after tat went for band den after tat go makan wif latiff and farhanah.. den after tat keith and wen jie came to join la.. den tat wen jie super guai lan lo.. kip on sho0ting mi.. as in everiting also get mi into it.. ever since yst.. den after tat i gort damn bluddy pissed le.. den totally ignore him.. den totally nvr talk at all.. den he ask mi dun angry den i ignore la.. see la... happie happie suan mi la.. now he suffer nort mie...

damn... i'm sho0 damn bluddy tired todae.. den moi right eye gort quite swollen la.. den veri nan jian ren lo... shit la..todae.. 1st period is the worst man.. had ss in the 1st period.. and i was so nort interested in it.. so i slept thru.. until sec period maths.. woke up when the lesson started.. had sum concentraton on mr ngien.. stayed awake fer abt.. 30 mins.. lik tat.. den shit la.. can't tahan.. den slept again.. until the end of the lesson... den english lesson came.. potatoe came in den i duno why suddenly gort alort of energy le.. guess because thoes tat slip during her lesson would die terribly den i "pa pa" so got so concentrated during her lesson... den during the sec period, went ot MLC.. den went to do the kota tingi assignment.. den at the same tym i went to fwenster there go see see lo.. haaS.. den saw one piggy add one testi fer mi.. den accept le.. den another fwen request.. den accept lo.. den all this and tat la.. den after tat went fer reccess den lesson... den lik tis lik tat until sch's over le.. suppose to go fer sectional bud because moi right eye gort kinda swollen den decided to go back and rest lo.. same tym go see doc.. until now still damn pain sia... the feeling lik kana bashed lik tat... haa... nvm la.. now i gonna go rest le.. gonna blog again soon ba..

haaS.. todae went to je library wif mei jing.. den after tat... wen jie came along.. den i felt sho0 damn bluddy left out.. den i did moi own hw.. den we've gort the cushion ma.. den i lie flat on it lo.. den sho0 shi0k machiam can jus slip there lik tat.. den i can't concentrate.. den i lo0ked out of the window.. kind of feel tat.. life rite now is reali boring.. reali sumhow lik meaningless.. den the pPl ard are sumhow fake??... i duno.. felt lik even if i leave tis world now.. nothing is reali there to let mie feel lik staying.. haaS.. tink i'm getting more and more emotional tis daes.. tat kinda feeling left mi and now its back again.. haaS... sho0 damn wierd man.. den after tat daniel and his grp of buddies came to "study" den we leaving le den let moi place with 2 cusions fer dem lo.. haaS.. treat dem sho0 well...after tat went to causeway to0k pics.. den cause we took alort lik 2 machines.. den after tat wen jie waited for veri long.. den when we came out he gave tat type of fcuked up face.. den when i ask him he so du lan.. den when mei jing ask him.. he totally change aiyo.. machiam mei jing is the medician to cure his anger.. haax.. lame.. den we go walk walk.. den finish walking ard le.. den wen jie parents call him to go back hm b4 6 den we still gort sum tym den we go jp walk.. we go lo0k see ard for earings.. den saw al0rt.. bud all nort suitable... den we walk ard lo.. until we went to -muee- den gort ourselves a pair of ear studs.. kinda unique and nice la..haaS>> den after tat went to pets station den we saw all thoes little puppies.. wah sho0 damn cute lo.. so small and adorable.. den after tat we walked to the bus interchange.. den they go take bus den i to0k moi veri own bus 11 home lo.. haaS... den here i am.. blogging... and i'm done now.. >>>...

haaS... todae was fun.. we had our band outing.. moi 1st one after beeing in the band for abt 2yrs plus?.. haaS... it was fun.. the sun was blazing hot.. bud it was reali nice for a tann.. of course it was the best for mie as i always wannted a tanned skin as i'm reali too fair.. machiam white chicken lik tat... haaS>.. bud now i'm nort.. i'm tanned now.. which is much nicer.. haaS.. hmmm.. we had section games tat was pretty lame.. bud it was fun la..cause for the benefit of the ice breaking for the section recruits... after tat..we had our makan with our section ppl.. den after tat we played gamess wif e whole band.. den i was the in-charge for captains ball together wid jeanette.. den we were lik the refree or smthing lo.. stayed still there walking here and there looking out for "files"... haaS.. pretty fun la.. den after tat we had our final game and den we went for our wash and pack up.. den we headed back to sch and then off we were to go back hm.. after i gort hm.. gort kind of tired den shower den lied on the sofa.. den ended up sliping there.. until dinner den didi woke mie up den i wake up.. haaS... >...>...>....

wad the hell man.. go to sch for the dental appointment to check moi teeeth.. wah.. the damn fcuking dentist jus came out frm her training izzit?? make me bleed on the mouth sho0 much sia.. machiam i jus suck a person's blood lik tat sia... so damn disgusting and pain lo.. den after tat went to nearby hawker with mei jing (cause we went fer dental together) to eat porridge cause moi gums damn pain.. den eat soft food la.. den can still feel the medi. the doc put into moi mouth lo... sia la.. suckx man.. spoil moi mood sia.. bud still finished it though.. den we went to je library to finish up our hw.. we stayed there frm abt 10 plus until abt 3 plus lik tat la.. sia la.. we sho0 shi0k there.. enjoyed talking den do our work.. haaS.. den after tat we left le den went to eat our "lunch" haaS.. den.. we ate long john.. we ate for a long tym cause we talked alort.. den we talked abt certain matters den the more we talked the more aggitated i gort.. wah sho0 damn blo0dy pissed off man.. shit thoes two blo0dy guys.. *dunch euu ever appear in front of mi ever again..* den after tat took 198 go hm.. den saw *fang" haaS.. moi other darling.. she suddenly so tanned sia.. den she wif a grp of her outside frens la.. haaS.. her frens sho0 super bian tai sia..bite each other in public.. lik her... same type.. haaS.. aiyo.. den after tat went hm.. and here i am blogging lo.. haaS... >...>...>...<3..

haaS.. todae early in the morning.. i wake up den call meiyi and confirm the tym to go swimMing.. den after tat mummi call mi nort to go.. sae wan mi go study.. cause play enuff le ma.. den dun wan mi to go.. bud i jus tell her sae okai lo.. dun go bud i tell her i go sch den i leave hm.. bud in fact i already wear moi outside clothes le.. den when the maid go do her work i go out straight.. sho0 she can't see.. den i go mit.. mei jing and meiyi.. den we go je swimming complex there swim.. frm 0945 lik tat swim until abt 1145 lik tat... den now.. hmm kind of tired la bud it worth.. at least tanned abit.. bud nort to worrie.. the cuming sat will reali make mi more tanned.. haaS... gonna go sentosa.. wah.. it's gonna be enjoyable man.. okai... hmmm.. now at hm all alone kind of bored.. bud also i nice tym to study and slip later... haaS.. aiya shall go worch tv now.. >..>..>..>..

i remember telling myself tat no matter wad happens i hav to make wadever tat is unhappie into a happie thing.. i've reali tried very hard to promise myself this bud i dunch noe why i still can't make myself do wad i promised... i reali can't seem to do it myself.. i feel all mo frens ard mie ar.. making mie feel veri *extra* between dem?? i can't see why i'm feeling this way.. reali feel i'm veri different frm a normal person.. i hav a veri nice family.. all of dem care for mie.. hav veri gud frens.. they noe when i'm sad and stuff.. bud i feel veri indebted to dem?! having the feeling tat i feel tat i shldn't be hanging out with dem?? everydae i can't seem to feel totally happie without any troubles, frustrations, everything.. i dunch noe.. all these seem to be hanging ard mie all the tym and also everydae.. i dunch noe if i'll ever be happie again.. i reali envy all the children.. all the kids and babies.. because they are alwaes sho0 happie smiling.. laughing ard... they hav no worries at all.. sho0 adorable and most of all they hav the m0st carefree mind.. without any worries.. so nice.. how i wish i can become a baby again.. reali wish i could... reali wish... > > > >

sucks man.. dunch noe why bud i kinda feel tat moi friendship wif sum of moi frens are getting ... hmmm.. into a worst conditio0n.?? dunch understand why also.. guess it's duUe to moi attitude ba... trying hard to go find out wad's wrong wif mie bud reali duno if they'd ever understand .. hope so... as i'm reali veri fea@rful tat wad if one dae moi frens leave mie.. i duno wad to do.. sho0 frens out there if euu noe tat i made eu angry or smthing pl do understand how i'm feeling.. co0m on and tell mie wad u're nort hapPiE abt and at least i noe.. ok@i.. tahnx eh..

hey.. i'm finally back frm the 4daes 3nites camp bud reali feel veri uncomfortable because gort al0rt of mosquito bites... den now feeling sho0 itchy.. ;ast nite sended up slipping on the floor man.. aiyo.. cause share wif madeline den the sleeping bag kana pulled sho0 much den i ended up on the floor... eEeEe... haix.. tmr still can't slip well.. gort tat TuPiD maths camp.. aiyoyo.. gonna make mi gomad man.. siao liao.. how ar?? shit man.. feel lik slipping the whole dae man.. can imagine how shiok man.. aiya.. forget it.. dun wana waste moi tym at hm rotting haaS..

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