kinda miss him fer awhile cause we didn't reali talked fer a while already and also missed him lor.. bud didn't tell him and nvr bothered to call cause i didn't noe wad to sae also.. another ting is tat i also didn't wan to be much of a bother as he's starting sch already and i'm also kind of busy sho0 didn't call or find him.. haaS... argGg.. don't know wad to do now.. haaIx.. i'm super tired tis june.. which i noe is fer sure as i've gort loads of camps and many other activities.. i dunch noe why kip feeling tat we are getting drifted further apart alreadi>>> aiya duno how la...

todae.. gort moi one and veri last dae of exam papers.. 1st is science paper 1 den after tat moi art paper... sian 3 hrs lei... wah can slip until i shi0ok ar... bud of coz i didn't la.. i continue on moi 4th piece.. haaS.. sho0 haapie i finally finish moi art piece.. moi supporting studies can finish ish also because i gort al0rt of moi best sistas and one boi boi tat help mi... gort = meiyi= =jaime= =mei jing= and boi boi =wen jie= help mi.. haaS>. reali veri gan xie dem.. without dem helping mi.. i tink i surely die veri badly... haaS... now all the exams finsh le i veri relax bud veri scared abt moi results.. haaSSS... duno can pass mid yr ma...haIx.. den jus now go jp wana collect moi bilabong visor bud they sae the new stock nort here.. den jus now go walk ard help meiyi see if gort any camp bag big enough tat can store for 5 daes.. den see le den we go eat at long jj0hn.. den after tat saw him.. haix... den after he cum next to mie sit down ka jiao... cause before tat he go moi hse "color court" there play bball.. den after we eat den they cum moi hse cause gort smthing they tink veri interesting veri fun....now i'm at home wif two *mm"S* meiyi and mei jing... haaS.. dey at moi hse play ddr... den mi now updating moi blog.. haaS... hmmm.. den the ppl frm 77th street jus call sae... can go collect le.. sho0 later i gonna go 77th street there together wif the two of dem pei mi go collect le den go pei dem hm.. yea... haaS... todae moi mood nort bad yea.. haaS...


here's a story i wana sae<<<
there's tis gal.. who used to be veri cheerful and veri veri active bud tis few months she met her ex again.. and they became veri close frens... it went on too close tat she starts to misunderstand and has got the feeling tat they might patch bud she noes veri well tat tis would nvr happen.. the reason being ish because the love they hav fer each other is not the type fer relationships... wad they have is abit lik bro and sis love bud also a little of couple love.. both of dem noe abt tis type of love dey hav.. which is veri clear.. they will nort patch and dey nvr will... they are still close frens bud she feels down... reali down when she knew abt =her= tis =her= is nice.. bud tis gal hates her as she is jealous.. bud her hate is nort type of veri terrible ones.. bud thoes tat she onli dislike her for a veri small ting.. it reali sux when she feels in tis way... reali bad... she hates the feeling.. bud it kips cuming to her... it kip cuming tat sumtyms she'll cry to herself... reali duno wad to do or how to let out her feelings.. all she does is jus to cry it all out... after crying, she feels much beta.. at least nort as sad as before... now she'll nvr believe in *forever*.. she'll onli believe in it until sumone reali proves to her tat forever reali exsists..<<<

duno why i cry sho0 mani times todae.. cried the 1st tym because mummi talk to mi... i'm reali putting the effort to study and do well fer moi exams and score well.. whu doesn't want to have gud results??... bud when i'm putting in all these efforts, were u all here?? no... u dunch see it.. and wad others sae u jus believe..den i be ur daughter 4 wad?? might as well jus disown mi... sumtyms reali hate u aloRt.. trust others more den u trust mi.. bud daddy always will help u put in gud words sho0 tat i'll nort hate u.. bud sometyms ur words can be reali hurting u noe... which actually shows mi veri clearly tat u do care fer mi bud it's in a veri veri hurting way tat i can nvr accept... daddy always say u do love mi veri much even more den didi.. bud... to mi you onli love and pamper mi with financial love and nort emotional love.. u shld noe veri well tat i'm a veri emtional gal... u noe tat veri well... u onli make mi happie by buying mi wad i want bud wad i reali need frm u ish the emotional love.. why can't u try to understand how i feel?? sumtyms reali wonder if u're moi real mother... i reali wonder.. even at the age of eleven, i've already started tinking of nort calling u =mummi= bud =auntie=... can u jus imagine how much of hatred i have for u at such a age lik tat??
2nd tym will cry ish because i heard tat song again... tis time with a veri sad feeling... den stare into space den listen to the song den listen to the lyrics... den feel tat it reali blends in to moi situation sho0 felt reali down den drop tears... yea it's kind of lame bud if u noe how i feel guess u'll tink likewise... "To u ... u noe whu u are.. i'm veri sowie tat i broke moi promise to u abt nort crying anymore... bud i reali can't take the pressure any further... i've to let it out... now tat i've let it all out, i'm fine now.. serious... pls dunch doubt moi words... i'm serious... to thoes whu are worried.. dunch worri i'm jus letting all moi feelings out dunch wana kip it inside mi anymore.. so dunch worrie i'm fine now...

todae early in the morning already kana shock cause ms lee todae look at mie frm top to bottom machiam wana catch lik tat.. sian.. haaS.. den after tat do the maths paper wah.. worst.. haaS.. den after the papre go fer break den after tat went bac to class. den i concentrating on the notes den tat stupid... idiotic ... dumbo.. fool frm moi class cum frighten mie frm behind.. den scream la.. den sho0 super paiseh lo.. fcuk him.. aRshole.. chey.. sucks man.. haaS.. den after tat go fer e physics paper.. wah.. another sub sure die de.. haix.. anyway abt moi eng the overwriting of words will deduct marks sia.. shit man.. die le.. reali dunch wana flunk moi eng.. haix.. den after the paper went to mit him at entertainment go worch movie.. big piggy.. gotta pay moiself.. haaS.. no la.. anyway he's nort moi stead wad.. also nort nice to ask him to pay.. haaS... stupid piggy.. alwaes ka jiao mi.. haaS.. haaS.. haaS.. todae i finally take revenge le.. scratch him wif moi nails den gort the mark.. sho0 ke lian.. haaS.. bud i still feel alittle bad la.. haaS.. anyway he also deserve this who ask him go ka jiao mi???!!!! haaS... den the auntie sitting in front talk sho0 loud machaim their hse lik tat... den put the leg on the chair so high somemore...
actually... i also dunch noe la.. sumtyms reali tink tat it's as if we reali together bud at the end of the day.. it's after all jus a dream tat has jus went pass... reali feel tat tis kinda dream reali nice bud when it's gone.. duno wad will become of mie.. haaS... aiya... i'll jus stay as moi usual self... feel gud and smile more den i'll be all okai already... yea.. tis is the real mi.. although i've changed alort since bud i'll still kip the smile on mi no matter wad... nobody even him will be able to make mi get tat smile away.. the most.. jus cry to moiself den i'll be all fine again the next dae...
haix sumtyms lurv reali sux aloRt...

exams start le.. todae first paper.. eng paper1 plus history... eng okai la bud i overshot the words by abt 179 lei.. wah die liao... altogether wrote 679 words... argGgGgGg... should onli write 500 i write until sho0 much.. haix,... sure die le la.. history.. even worst.. i study thoes nvr cum out.. i nvr study de.. cum out one big chunk... wah.. die already... den i jus write down wad i noe lo.. see i sho0 ke lian.. haix>>>... den todae after moi paper suppose to mit him.. den gort something on den nvr go mit him.. feel sho0 bad... call him.. nvr answer... maybe angry or if nort slipping ba... haiX.. nvr see him for quite some tym le.. haix... kinda miss him.. haaS.. hope tat tmr will be able to mit him...<<<

1st may....>>> sat..
sat went out.. went to IMM... go buy furniture with family.. den suay suay saw one of moi sch's couple.. haaS.. the funni thing is tat the moment the guy saw mi he faster grab his steads hand den run away... haaS.. stupid fool... siao<<<>home le so tired den go take a short nap... den study.. after tat at nite eat dinner le den study... ard 10 plus slip le... zZzZzz..

2nd may...<<<>
darling nephew willy's birthdae... haaS he's sho0 cute... hahaS.. took sum pic.. quite nice.. next tym put in friendster haaS... den i went his house help decorate the house cause gort party.. bud after tat i went out wif moi cousin and baby... also another cutie gal gal... haaS.. wonder why all moi niece and nephew all sho0 cute... haaS.. den after tat suppose to mit him... bud since he nvr reply den i didn't bother den jus go back le.. den after tat i go study awhile den slip le.. den duno why slip half way wake up ard 1 plus... den can't slip le... den jus stare out of the window lying on moi bed lo... den suddenly he msg mi sae he jus finish work.. den i replied saying i can't slip.. den after tat we talk on the fone... bud onli fer awhile... cause i felt slippy le... den wana go back slip again... piggy la mi.. heeS can't blame... den slip le lo... zZzZzZz....

3rd may... >>> mon
early in to morning 7 plus wake up den see nobody wake up so sian den i go back slip again... slip slip slip... until 10 plus... den wake up later go out go istana there walk walk wif mummy bro and cousin and niece... the cutie gal gal.. haix she sho0o naughty... run run run den falll down.. haaS.. den saw nanyang gals performing.. see dem onli moi happie mood half gone... haiX... sian ar...
den after tat we go shop plaza sing... den after tat bought alot of tings bac.. so heavy sia.. haiX... den go home mummy buy crab.. den we eat.. haaS.. so shiok...heeS...

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