baby left for his cruise holi alrdy.. i'm missing him sosososososo much!. jus now i suddenly smelt baby's smell also. it's been some time since tis happened alrdy. tis proves i'm missing him so SO much. how i wish friday will arrive soon!!! :(( tis fi will definetly be TGIF for me instead of OMFGIF! hahahahah!!! baby's gonna make my friday tis week.
baby i'll be waiting for u to come back! enjoy LOVE!!! :))

to this friend :
now i know i ain't placed in the position as i thought i always was in ur heart. now i know. you showed it all to me. tks for everything. lucks to ur everything.


prelims are coming. and after tune it's gonna be my o's. taking it for the second time but the feeling is jus so raw. so new. so fresh. but my contents for evey subject is all so mild. i've left veri lil time. people are pushing n rushing me to get up and study till i drop. especially him. ppl encourage and push. he push and scold and blame.and maybe alil encourage. why are u so fierce towards me. treat me slightly better ain't difficult rite. oh well. i know u meant well but. maybe i can't really accept the feeling now. i'll adapt to it soon JUS FOR THE PAPERS. aftr papers no more such nonsence frm u. get it?! :)) loves.

btw, why shld mock tests be given jus 1 wk before when we're gonna be sitting for our prelims soon? ain't it a waste of paper and time? jus sit for the prelims lar! -.- mofos~ jus as well. history is the worst i tink. 2 mock tests. double -.- SHE simply freaks me out. i still rmb her quarreling over the mobile with mum. mum said : "why do u wana call the parent when u don't even trust them?" silence was all mum recieved aftr she said that. SHE thereaftr said. :" than if she doesn't do well for her humanities don't blame me." mum: " i didn't say i'll blame u!" omfg!! mum is so farking zai can! when she ringed me over on the phone, i was rushing for lessons at novena, when she told me abt it, i swear if there was a chance, i'll jus laugh my ass off in public. too bad din hav the courage to lar. i onli managed a giggle and smile. :(( i rmb she still came to class the nxt lesson telling us she'll jus scream over the fone telling the parents off without giving face. BUT! who was the one telling HER off without giving her face when she called mummy and even kept silent!? :))) u all noe the ans.

i do self reflections. at times like todae while waiting for buses to head hm. everytime i think abt it i actually think abt my papers at the end of the year. i tink abt HIM. i tink abt family. these 3 are my biggest worries. oh man! also money lar!! farking broke. bank's money is DEcreasing and likewise my drawer money! darn. :( can i ask for a mind-reading machine for my upcoming birthdaY? it's gonna be something i nid alot man. anyone??

the longest word-y post aftr so long. :))
last but not least.
loves to baby etwk. :))

jus to cover up for yst.
my lovely baby darling came to mit me!!
what's more it was our 8th mth!
although simple but still i love it cause my loved one is there right beside me.
so touched and happy man!!
i'm so in love with my baby.
:))

it's nice talking to ur closed ones and chilling ard. tats wad happened yst. with two of my best confides. they're the best ppl that i can ever meet in my life. they always give me the smiles on my face whenever i'm with them. be it cuase they're fooling ard or saying stupid things to irritate each other. ya. they're the lovliest couple i've ever seen. we talked abt everything and anything. i am so blessed to have them in my life. this post is specially posted just for u two. be glad yea? thanks alot fang fang and clarance. :))

today is our day baby,
happy 8th month baby love. :))
my love is growing stronger frm all that we've went through these months.
i believe u've too yea??
ilu. i'll always do.
muacks.
i'll be waiting for the day to get up close and cuddle together with u.
loves baby.

i've finally got my desired tann. went tanning wit bro today. he went to play his "slides" and all but i jus went to enjoy my tanning wit my beautiful sun. tomorrow's history test. so i brought my notes along to revise in order not to waste tym. went the other day on the same wk but the tann was reali so mild cause i onli stayed for abt an hr cause of jaime kwan lar hahah!!
rites. prelims are coming n my actual papers are gonna arrive soon too. so i reali gottta buck up alrdy huh!! life's gonna be beautiful for me aftr tat. right baby?? i'm waiting.
:))
baby u gotta recover frm ur back sprain soon ya?

i felt bad.
even till now.
i claimed i din feel anything saying those hush words but now i feel so so bad.
:(
.
.
baby.
i'm sorry. i reali din mean to say all those words. i was jus overcomed by my anger n pek chek-ness. i'm apologetic abt it all.. i'm sorry. hope u're not angry abt it and tat u've forgotten it all. i hope. so tell me that u've forgotten abt it. or rather din even take it seriously for u knew that i was jus venting my anger. u knew how much u meant to me. so u gotta understand. i love u frm the beggining till now. it's nvr been lesser or stagnant. it's onli been more. and i mean it. getting stronger n stronger. now that my papers are approaching & it also means i'm gonna regain all my tym with u. i'll be more hardworking. study harder and do well for ur greatest wish for me is to do that rite? yup. i'll do my best not to let u down. I LOVE U. :)

tink i'm gonna get a throat infection soon.
the right side of my throat is hurting.
show ur care for me pls.
.
.
somebody teach me how to be independent can?
i nid to learn this badly.
can't depend too much on baby anymore.
:)
baby jus wana tell u i love u so much.

locked out of hm seems to make me understand alot of things.
i understood many things.
i realised & saw many things.
tks for letting me understand it all.
it jus mirrors everything back to me.
nothing was different in the first place.
i jus thought it was but now i know.
it never was.
thanks for everything..
.
and to you.
i'm reali sorry for creating that misunderstanding & bringing u into all these trouble.
you were innocent in the first place but look wad i've done.
i'm sorry. hope our relationship stay as wad we were in the beginning.
things shall nvr change btw us yea? jus lik years back.
i cherish it.

i'm getting all my muscle cramps coming all towards me. so pain!!!! omfg! jus because of a game i played during pe. haha. fun yet i get all these in return. reason- LACK OF EXERCISE!! omfg. i'm so in need to exercise. haha! to build up my stamina plus slim dwn to compete wit baby lar. he's been training so hard these days in the gym. hahah.
.
.
gotta go.
heading to hav dinner & study alrdy man.
:))
i'm missing baby so much.

Beatrice
18011990
eighteen
mailbox- beatrice_sham@hotmail.com

bitchy tym*

thy past.

August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
October 2005
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
February 2009
April 2009


since april 30th 2007



/a>