he is now concentrating on his prelims so much tat i feel so empty now... haix... it's so bored without him... as i said... i would hate him but i reali love him... so i reali can't stop thinking of him... yst we talked for awhile den he said he's not well cause for his prelims but he insisted on wanting to mit mi but i didn't want him to so i told him to go and study ... now it's my turn to get sick... having fever here.. wad si@ ... so irritating feeling so heavy on the head... haix.. wana go continue my project le... continue on the next blog... buaizZz.. love yea...


haix... todae.. i'm late to mit him again... i suppose to mit him at 0625 den i woke up at 0700... haha... i'm such a lazy pig... wanted to PON sch but aiya duno wad reason to give den also tink stay at home so sian... so might as well go sch... DC also can la dun mind... hahaz... den i diao taxi go sch den when i reach i saw him.. he was walking out of sch... oso duno why... hahax... den he shake his head.... den i smile smile... hahaz i nvr sae anything coz i scared late den i jus walk in ... wuahaa.... but i still duno he still got angry ma.... :(


aiya.... my beloved hp is gone forever... but nvm i'm gonna buy a new wan by tis end of the month... haix realised tat i've got the same fate as my =laogong= -chow meiyi- haiz ... now her hp lost... and my hp spoiled... ON THE SAME DAY.... aiyo y lik tat... tat time we got stead also almost same time den break also almost same time... y?? haix... my hp is gone... a few weeks will not have to use hp le... how?? i'm gonna die man>>> how am i going to survive... i'm so down... my >>sweetie<< will not be able to contact mi easily le... haix how???


haix... jus for 3 days nvr mit den we quarell le.. we actually mit in the morning at 0645 den in the end i didn't wake up until 0730... cause y? cause of my stupid alarm clock... did not ring den i never wake up... den he got so angry and fed up...den he msg mi sae tat since i didn't go down and mit him and nvr reply his msg, why even bother to mit den he said tat i even wasted his time... :( i was so sad... when i replied him he nvr reply... den i called him.. he answered and i asked if he is still angry den he said "NO" in a so sacastic way... den i say sorry and all den he said he not angry & told mi not to worry & tat he's not free so .... he just hung up the phone... i was so down after tat den i had bad mood the whole day... it was so bad that i even scolded my recruits so badly jus because of the simple rhythm they dunch no... if it's on a normal day, i would jus tell them to go back and look through... haix jus bcoz of my bad mood, it caused them to get hell scolding frm mi... but at the end of the day, i still apologised to them... hahaz... guess tats all folks....


on our first month.it was teachers' day eve..so he accompanied me to my pri sch den all my friends said that he got not bad looks..whoa..haha..den we went to mit his friends den we took a train to bugis den on the way,i sat with his friend(gal) on the floor while he sit with his friend.. den i so sian den i listen 2 his friend's MD..den i look so bored that he realised den he ask his friend to change place with him..i so shock..den he huddle around me den i took his phone anyhow take picture den he took away and took a pic for the two us..den i snatch away cause so ugly den delete..haha..i'm a genis..den we go bugis buy present for liwei stead..den i said maybe buyin a bag will suit her den they say buy lo..den i so pissed off lyk i say what den they agree den i face black black den he say relax,den he hug me den i duno why i jus push him away and walk away..en he follow me den we talk at the railing there den his friend chose the present den we talk den i smile le den he hug me..den let him lo..in e end still also bought the bag..den we go walk walk den we go sit train go sim lim... go c COM ... den we went back home.... we dropped at clementi den took 99 to jp den we walked back to my place... den when we walked back we sat at one of the parks there den he asked for a maker den i gave him den he wrote - christopher and Beatrice were here... on 31/7/04 - den i wrote - chris love btrice - den he smile... haha.. guess tats all for = our first month = ....


dunch no why... i am feeling so down... jus because of what he says.. the day was fine UNTIL nite came & my mood suddenly changed and it somwhow or rather affected him ... dunch no y he treats mi so well but i jus can't treat him the way he treats mi... when i'm down, he will try to make mi laugh or smile... but duch no y i will not feel beta totally although i did smile... why? another thing is i reali am pissed of when he talks abt his ex.s ... ahhh... all tis actually pisses mi off... dunch tink he knew it until i told him... why won't he no it through my words? i thought my words were the most straight - forward ones? feel so down now... reali down... reali feel lik going to slip and onli to wake up when i reali can forget about everiting... :( sadness is overcoming mi ....

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