make me ur wonder, make me ur lover.

Thursday, November 30, 2006 // 10:30 PM

who can be as big hearted n nice lik me??

bringing home 2 of my ex boyfriends wit a grp of frens..

well i did.. joe.. charles.. vin.. guan.. yew on.. meiyi came to my place to chill.. den at the same time help mi fix my internet connection.. hmmm..

had a great tym anyway.. but still i felt weird..

aftr tat all of us headed to jp.. had mac for dinner.. before we reached.

i even told meiyi i was lucky cause chirs wasn't working on thurs.. but jus now.. talking half-way.. chris walked by den joe talked to him.. DOTS!!!! WTF??

so seh can?? wad is this a reunion??? ex boyfriend meeting uh.. wth??? hmmm.. so confused n stunned can??? hmmm... i duno wad to do la.. sian..

// 6:42 PM

i love tis pic the most.. so nice can??

was out almost everydae since o levels ended.. spent almost all my tym on either the band or wit eugene.. hmmm had chalets.. camp.. tonning out at ecp... damn tired can.. hmm.. pics up soon.. putting up those took wit eugene first.

Friday, November 17, 2006 // 6:00 PM

aftr daes of slacking at hm n out wit ppl.

finally i'm going for my second last paper!!!

did my history..

be happie for mi k???

once again i din take a single wink..

my favourite invigilator was lik kip looking n smiling at mi la..

so cute can!!! haa.. so sad i can onli see him for another one more paper n onli 1 hr den no more.

haa.. nvm.. blog hopping again before blogging i saw tis blog tat said these things which i presume they were for mi.. here goes:

y im so stupid?

in my heart, i wan the best for you..

i wan u to be happy..

but, i seem to be doing the wrong things..

saying the wrong things..

i must learn.. learn how to make u a happier person..

i reali wish that u will pei me n guide me along..

once i'm on the right track, i'm sure i can lead u the way.

somehow or rather aftr i saw all these i felt touched.. i felt things n feelings i nvr exprienced before.. is he reali such a person.. a person that can bring mi the happiness tat i yearn? the everything tat i expect frm my him??

can he? is he??

i ask myself tis.. no answer came to me..

i decided to wait.. to allow myself to think.. the same old thing goes.. i dun wana hurt myself.. thats the most impt part..

to u:

i'm sorry for being undecisive..

but lik i said. i dun wana make myself regret again for wad i did..

i noe u're reali good to mi..

hoping to make mi happie n smile at all times..

i know.. but now.. having u always by mi whether i nid u or i dun is alrdy a veri pleasant thing tat happened to mi.. reali.. thank you so so so much.=))

if u reali am serious abt mi. i nid assurance.. i nid to see u prove it all.. i'm demanding but tis is wad i noe tat i nid.. den i can be sure u're the one for me..

=)) u can always give up if u reali think u can't do it.. i dun mind.. n i dun wan u to regret as well. so think carefully.. i hope ur love towards me is not infactuation but real love tat u feel in ur heart.

Thursday, November 16, 2006 // 4:05 AM

boooo!!!!!!

she's so tired..

heart n brian tells her she wana slip but eyes saes NO!!!!

wth~

can't leave for lala land~

darn!!!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 // 11:09 PM

had my whole dae out with my new car which was in my waiting list..

we were suppose to worch step up but we ended up going to the wrong theatre because he was SO BLUR!!!

hmmm.. horrible blury.. haa.

we worched material girls in the end.. nicenice~ the gals were so HOT!! n i mean HOT ok.. hmm.. nice car.. nice dresses nice everything...

aftr everything, we went shop shop.. walk walk.. my legs were in hell i tell u!! it's reali in hell.. darn painful n worst still no plaster..!!! hateHATE~

blisterBLISTERblister~ so pain can?? hmmm.

hmmm.. overall to sae he's nice n swit.

but she's still not stable enuff to go into a new r/s least she hurts him n herself again..

she doesn't wana hurt anyone no more n also others to hurt her..

hmmmm~ hope all will work out well if we were to hav developments.

timeTIME.. we nid it all.. at least i do..

wait for mi if u're serious abt mi.. =))

// 1:54 AM

someone said she's moody todae..

is she??

her old sickness is up n running all ard her again..

it's called moodless or rather

emo.

emo is never something she loved doing..

wth? who in the world loves it? psycos i guess.

let's talk abt her dae..

she went timah wit DSB grp n jaime..

check* all was fine.

headed jaime's hse to make things..

check* all was fine..

home

check* fine too!!

wth?? den wad's wrong..

somebody ans my qn pls.. i'm confused abt alot of things.. many many things.. i nid answers frm others again.. someone let mi copy it frm ur brian? pls?

i reali nid it..

Monday, November 13, 2006 // 7:48 PM

tis is wad gugu drew mi.. so swit!! loves. to those who chose to stand by mi n cheer mi up!!! wan sui!!!

// 6:37 PM

i love tis pic.. seems alil seductive?? hmmm

beat.

tis is the baby i was fooling with while in mac.. she's so cute.. haa.. so jap.

// 3:08 PM

she had a new prob.. a misunderstanding.

somehow or rather, it's settled. but still she don't feel good...

now i noe i'm wrong wit the fact tat i din noe it at all.. i'm sorry..

to: sis

i'm sorry for it.. it did hurt u a whole lot i din giv u tat concern nor care but

now tat things are getting clearer for mi,

i'm gonna learn.. guess it's nvr too late..

we shall stay as sisters ok.. tats wad i hoped.. we shall all be closed ones for as long as we can.

aynway thank you for the understanding n forgiveness u gave mi..

veri much appreciated..

// 1:18 AM

btrice enjoyed her sunday so much todae man!!!!

HAPPIE 16TH BDAE RANDY!!!

thankx to all for such a wondrous dae.. haa..

loves to..

jing hong.. miranda.. randy.. keng leng..

kapoh.. ah gu.. n frens..

hmmm.. love all these ppl they made my sunday a wonderful one.. haa..

had celebrations for randy at bugis.. finshed everything ard 5..

headed far east to mit kapoh n gu n frens.. den walk. shop. slack. fool ard..

enjoyed the dae alot la!!! hmmm.. loveLOVE~ to all..

tanx ah gu for accompanying mi back!! loves.

btrice is setting herself free again.. out frm loneliness.. she's setting cars on her waiting list..

might wana test drive again.. ahah!!! hmmm.. ppl.. shld she??? hmmm.

the car seems alil tempting.. LOL!!!

nah~ she wana study the car first.. get all details den see if it's safe for a drive..

heee~

panda is gooona catch up wit mi.. gotta slip early soon.. haa.. everydae so shag la..

reach hm.. online den totally fresh!!! haa..

wierd lady uh?.. haa..

Saturday, November 11, 2006 // 12:44 AM

my dae started off pretty badly.

was suppose to mit a fren for early macdonalds breakfast at 0900..

he knew i wasn't feeling veri good the

nite before.. had a small quarrel wit him in fact..

he asked for breakfast.. being nice.. i accepted the fact tat

i'm gonna drag myself off my bed during the early morning to mit him

though i slept at 330AM.

somemore nxt dae got paper.. starting at 23o.

i dragged myself up at 800am..

even for shower n got ready for my breakfast..

was suppose to mit at my voiddeck at 900am..

headed dwn.. he wasn't there.. tot maybe i'm alil early which was so unlike mi..

so waited... i've nvr waited for a person for as long as 30 god damn mins for duno how many donkey months.. wtf??? i waited tat long todae..

good one.. tot he was being nice wana cheer mi up.. still he made mi worst..

dio dua nvm.. fucktard~

gave him a call.. no ans..

2 msgs.. no reply..

so being a hot tempered mi.. headed home to slip..

NO BREAKFAST!!!

idiots..

11 plus he msged mi sae he overslept n mobile was on silent mode..

btrice din reply.. din bother..

she felt tat he was taking his swit revenge..

it all happened few wks bac.. was suppose to mit him at 8 tat dae..

i reali overslept so i missed the tym to mit..

woke up at 11 plus.. den msged him immediately to apologise..

same thing he din giv mi a reply..

so ppl.. is tis my swit revenge?? is it wad i deserved??

i dun understand.. i reali din mean it..

y must i go through tis???

getting veri tired...

did my math paper.. btrice is darn proud of herself can???? hmmmm.. surprisingly she din take a single wink.. din slip at all!!!! woots!! so proud..

the funnist part was when my invigillator came to collect my script,

he asked mi a qn while i was tying the papers..

"eh.. todae not slipy uh?? haa"

btrice smiled feeling embarrassed..

told hui ting who was beside mi. she laugh until lik our whole surrounding also can hear can????

fucktard~ moody~

feeling moody... had 2 quarrels yst nite..

one wit the person who dua-ed mi..

the other.. the person who talked abt decisions n life wit mi..

reali feel tat the one who talked abt decisions reali has no future.. no life..

his life is so so so meaningless.. he's alrdy living till such a age n he's behaving in tis way???

so sad for him can??? BUT since he doesn't appreciate all ppl's kindness..

guess i shldn't bother much..

my feelings still lingers for him.. but maybe

if i were to be tgt wit him it's gonna be jus for the company.. tats all..

not expecting a single thing frm him..

eeeeeww.. btrice seems so bitchy..

but maybe onli in tis way she'll feel beta..

gonna leave for lala land soon~ nitex my dear ppl..

Thursday, November 09, 2006 // 10:41 PM

pix up for the 7th!!!

trying to play a fool tgt.. twist* pouts*..

btrice.

i wana kiss her but she wants mi to bash her up.. can u see it!!!!

points* at yi and sticks out tongue* at btrice..

serious n formal pic wit yi at je mac aftr getting tired n fooling ard wit yi's hair.. ahah!!

twist twist* happie tym!!!

blured eyes for btrice but looks alrite though haa.. yi looks fine to mi..

us.

awwww~ wad am i shy abt?? she loves mi n tats predicted ahah!!!

// 3:28 PM

i'm SO SO SO bored at hm!!!!! someone take mi out pls pls pls????

Wednesday, November 08, 2006 // 4:26 PM

btrice is down again.. she feels sad again.. shall not name why cause she doesn't feel lik it.. she wans programmes!!! onli lik tis will she not hav the tym to feel down nor think too much.. programmes anyone??? be nice?? bring her /ask her out??? pls pls pls????

Monday, November 06, 2006 // 6:06 PM

haa.. din hav the mood to blog in the first place cause my dae was alrite but not veri pleasant cause i could do my ss.. my math was done happily for the first half but the sec half.. i was frowning throughout.. lol.. HATES!!!

guang hong made my dae!!!!

haa.. loveLOVE~ guang hong made my day man!! went home n went online.. he was in camp den chatted online wit mi.. den chatted chatted.. suddenly he said.>>

guang hong>> hey u noe wad, seriously i think ur this pic nice la
beat >>> both mi n my fren??
guang hong>> u only la..
guang hong>> i think 2 reason why this pic u lo good
guang hong>>1) u already look good

>> 2) she make u stand out ... lol
beat>>>haa... aiyo.. i like u la.. haa.. make mi so happie todae!!! u make my dae!!!

beat>>> shall blog todae cause i'm happie!!! loveLOVE~

i love todae.. hahax.. guang hong made my dae man.. loveLOVE~ haa.. was partially happie n partially down.. but now btrice chooses to be HAPPIE!!! haa.. i must be happie else many others will nag at btrice again.. awww... hatesHATES~ hmmm.. btrice is ha[ppie k?? rmb tat!!

Thursday, November 02, 2006 // 2:17 PM

had i long msn chat wit eddie yst.. haa. we chatted many things. he explained many things for MR ABC.. i duno y.. somehow or rather i feel.. my impression abt MR ABC has changed.. frm a nice guy to a unrefined n ungentlemen guy, although eddie explained so so so much to mi. it's din reali change my thinking alot..i'm still strong on my stand on wad kinda guy he is.. i duno y.. maybe when i was heated up tat nite. i've deemed myself tat he's such a guy.. awwww.. wadeva it is i did my part in saying how i felt to MR ABc.. so no worries it's not gonna affect mi much .. guess for MR ABC.. it wun affect him much too eh?! haa. rmb a person's tinking is hard to change esp when it's not ur own.. worst n further more when they're stubborn.. like mi!!!!! ahah!!

btrice is not getting any beta!!! her flu in fact is getting worst.. sore throat.. darn.. not getting beta too.. darn pain la... drink water also got dificulty.. so sad la.. nobody wana take care of her!!! den lik tat she can't love anyone?! awww.. darn... hmmm...

movie movie movie!!!! grudge grudge grude.. scared scared but wana worch heee.. grudge 2 i'm coming woots!!!! panda u rmb tis ur neh neh is gonna be gone!! u promise mi to go for the movie den u dua mi.. say can't go le.. uh.. u die i tell u!!!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 // 6:20 PM

woots!!! a total brand new blog.. changed my profile.. new blogskin.. new song.. everything.. getting tired of the same skin.. so changed it.. so happie wit it.. loveLOVE~ hmmm.. tis is wad i did during my super bored times haa.. not veri satisfied anywae.. hmm.. gonna try more.. hee.. jus finsished my art paper.. hmm all worries abt the pieces gone.. ahah!!

i'm sick man.. darn!!! of all times.. now??!! having flu n sore throat.. so iritating. hmmm.. darn -X1o0- anyone wana take care of her n persuade her to take her med?? haa.. who's willing to?? i'll love tat person.. haa.. : )