Sunday, December 17, 2006 // 12:04 AM
haven't had the tym to blog n no mood too..
jus tagged n all..
gonna blog todae..
wana answer the questions someone asked mi..
wad are ur doubts in relationship? wad's stopping u?
she's been hurt too much in the past. n she fears things will repeat jus lik history again.. she hates all these kinda feeling.. the feeling of being left in the cold all alone without her him ard her.. with her.. telling her nothings gonna go wrong when she's in confusion or in trouble. she hates the feeling of being backstabed.. being cheated of her feelings.. her so called wonderful dream to be shattered cox of his so-called .new dream.newlove. she hates being left there to cry. wine.scream.shout.drink alcohol.get drunk. when she realises things are not going the correct route or when she breaks up.. she doesn't want her to be foolishly giving everything n not getting anything in return.. no.. all these are not wad she wants..all these feelings sucks.. she reali doesn't lik it.. she still remembers all those daes of pathetic crying.. she cried every nite.. every nite was lik a crying session.. fang fang will always msg her n remind her to stay strong n not cry.. she hates it.. the feeling sucks.. now.. she led her life veri happily.. met many new frens.. had more fun.. work.. pigu-her new hamster.- everything.. they all kept her busy. too busy that she can't even think of the probs.. she hates it all..
she doesn't know if she should commit cox she fears of failure.. she fears that she might go back to wad she was previously.. those daes were the worst of her life.. reali.. she hates it all.. ask her closed ones.. they suffered alot when they were with her.. they couldn't do anything.. they could onli stay there n console her but it was alil redundant cox she doesnt listen.. not tat she doesnt want totally but partially cox she can't think carefully wad she wants.. she onli noes she's suffering.. but now tat her life is so much beta, she's gonna take advantage of tis n hold on to wad she has now.. lik she said last month.. she's happie wit wad she has now.. se nids nothing more.. nor nothing less.. =))
theres more to add on ..
but rite now these are the onli ones she can think of..
i'll add on some other time.. she's tired she needs rest..