Thursday, May 25, 2006 // 9:38 PM
i've failed veri much as a sis.. as a fren.. i've done things to make her suffer.. to make her live her life lik tat.. i made all these happen.. all these shit tat came up to her life happen.. i tot all i did will help her become a betta person.. a beta fren.. a beta everything.. but seems lik it isn't and i've been making it even worst.. i'm the worst bitch.. a terrible fren.. all i did caused her to suffer.. caused misery in her life. cox her to lose trust in everything.. in her life.. in her everything... she nids someone but she chooses herself now.. cox of mi.. i did tis to make her suffer... suffer so much... reali regret doing all these to her.. din expect all these whld happen.. i feel terrible now.. i'll not seek help frm ppl ever again.. till the dae tat i'll blast cox i can't take it den i'll blast.. or maybe till tis matter is totally over and we're back as usual again.. den maybe will i be beta.. 250506.. tis dae let mie noe mani things.. learnt mani things.. learnt abt life.. her life.. my life.. abt mi.. abt her.. abt all these tat i din noe... i jus hate myself now.. i may be lifeless now.. like a zombie.. but tmr i'll be laughing lik normal.. but things inside mi are diff. veri veri diff... i hate all these... but i caused all these thus i've nothing to sae.. i brought it upon myself... all of it... gonna regret it all my life.. tis is my deepest regret so far.... it will and it shall always be..
btrice lives a much miserable life now.. happie rite? fer all thoes who hates mie.. u've got ur wish now...