Tuesday, May 30, 2006 // 10:17 AM
it's been daes since i came bac here to blog.. firstly wasn't in any mood.. life those daes was in a whirlpool fer mi.. things not going the way i want them to.. problems kip cuming up even when the other is not even solved.. and the probs jus kip getting bigger and bigger... during that period of tym.. i veri much wanted to come bac blogging and vent out all tat i wanted to sae and how i felt.. but i thought over.. i don't want ppl to pity mi and make myself lik a damn pathetic soul.. i rmb tis as ting~ said tis to mi... reading my blog at tyms make ppl feel lik i nid lots of sympathy... i'm here to tell everyone here who reads my blog... i dunch nid no freaking sympathy frm anyone.. i jus nid someone who can be there fer mi.. who is willing to understand mi.. who will be willing to listen to mi pour my sorrows.. all these are some things i nid frm a true fren.. the recent prob tat i went through was a prob tat i've nvr tot i'd hav.. it's actually abt frenship.. i've alwaes tot myself as a veri good fren.. a fren. a sis who can understand and be there fer the person.. i've nvr realised how terrible i've been until she told mi all tat.. we cried tat nite infront of the comp.. we talked through msn.. we shot off everything we tot of.. not worrying abt hurting each other's feelings.. tat moment everything jus felt lik the world crashed upon mi.. onli towards mi but the other were all alrite.. yes.. it may seem veri dramatic but still it's jus how i felt.. i really felt veri terrible.. then again.. NOW.. everything btw her and mi.. we're over it alrdy and we're back to the normal us. we're still the best sisters tat we have ever been.. the whole quarrel made us realise that we both each had our bad points and we nid to compromise wit each other.. tis also made mi sort out my problems.. i used to have many many probs even before this but aftr tis happpened i've learnt more abt myself through others.. understand more abt her through tis.. learnt abt life... how ppl react in life.. how this and how tat... yea~ life this few daes are short but it seems like so many lessons came upon mi tis daes.. i've absorbed alot.. learnt alot... btw.. i flunked my mye.. sucks.. dare not sae i've put in totally full blast of my concentration and stuff but still i tink i tried.. i pray hard and reali do pray tat i'll do well fer my o's.. i dun wana regret.. i've to believe in myself and tell myself tat i can do it.. i've no confidence in myself fer my studies but fer others.. i seem to hav so much confidence.. why ar?? omg!!! i'm wierd... haven't have had enough rest these daes.. have been dreaming.. having nightmares and all... i can't get enough rest.. no proper slip without any disturbance.. mommi and daddi hav been worrying abt my health alrdy.. their lil girl hav been in the pink of health frm young and now she's getting sick so easily.. nvm.. ill be back.. learning to be strong.. and learning to settle my probs myself.. the recent one.. i've told no one.. totally nobody.. onli myself and her.. the 2 main parties.. my other sis who used to hear my pour.. nah! nvr told dem... =) yg told mie i've grown alil.. at least making myself live beta... i love yg!! >as a fren<>
btrice is almost back... ALMOST!!!!... catch her when u see the old btrice back k??? haaa...