Tuesday, May 23, 2006 // 4:18 PM
i hate my freaking hair now!!!!! it sucks.. looks so damn short and ugly.. i feel so ugly now!! reali ... hates* regretted stepping into exquizit... doubt i will even step in to get my hair cut again... the most get onli my fringe cut there... omg!!! i hate it.... no no no.. can i reverse time??? i wana take back the words on waning to cut my hair!!!!! i hate tis.. feel so so so damn ugly.... i'm sad...
yst saw wan sheng.. my third boo... todae saw chris.. my sec boo... so am i suppose to see my 4th boo tmr??? it all goes in a row.... in a wk... i can't take tis... i'm not prepared to face all this coincidence.... when i see them the memorys are coming bac again... when they appear... flashbacks come back... misery also comes... i dun wan tis... if all these happens all my efforts on forgetting dem and kipping all the memorys aside will be a total waste of tym... i feelll... totally terrible... esp if i mit yew on somewhr suddenly, i'll suffer more... cox i'm still on the process of wanting to forget abt our relationship, forget abt the past.. so if i were to see him now, i'll fall again.. definitely.. fer sure.. i've not even succeeded in forgeting him.. and here i am.. seeing him in my life again.. how am i to continue with my plan of wanting to forget him... i feel so so so lost... confused.. i can't possibly put up more fake fronts and sae tat i'm fine and i'm happie... i can't... i can't face myself.. and i can't face my close ones.. esp. fang- she noes it all... i can't lie to her abt my feelings... all thesee ppl who walked outta my life are coming back... coming back.. wad am i suppose to do?? how shld i react...??
i hate my hair.... all these ppl who walked outta my life.. can u pls tell mie wad u wan frm mi now???