Sunday, May 07, 2006 // 9:49 AM
i feel so worried fer ame-.. it's all freshkon's fault.. it made her eyes lik tat.. i'm reali worried.. no worries baby.. u'll be fine okai... i'll be praying fer u~ worried worried worried.. tis few daes i'm jus worrying abt tis worrying abt tat.. it reali seems lik i've nothing to do.. but besides worrying abt stuffs, i've been studying.. doing my damn bloody mye revision.. whether or not i'll do well it's not of much worry now.. at least i noe i did my best in doing my own revision..
duno why these few daes flashbacks of mi and my ex boo keep coming back to mie.. jus lik yst... i was doing revision at my place with meiyi.. den was writing down definitions of electricity-physics-, i suddenly rmbed abt the tym when i was with him at the chalet.. these flashbacks kip coming back.. it serves as memorys fer mie.. but sometyms come to tink abt it.. i reali feel veri down coz i've lost him.. he's gone.. nvr coming back to mie again.. he lives his life, i live mine.. miss the tym we had together.. miss everything we shared..
all these are pasts.. i now i've to face the present but it ain't gonna be easy.. like i said i nid tym.. lots and lots of tym... i nid someone to teach mi mani things.. teach mi how to pick up myself quickly aftr my fall.. how to make myself stay strong both on the outside and inside... mani mani things.. all these are making worries fer mie... u might tink the same way as how he did tat tym.. saying tat i onli tink fer the unnessesary.. i totally dunch agree.. i will onli think abt it as it holds a purpose.. u don't live in my live thus u don't noe.. onli if u live in my life and share the same heart or brain onli den will i hav nothing to sae.. tats how i feel... so don't tell mie things like.. u understand or u can feel how i feel.. sometyms it seems soothing and heart-warming but at tyms it reali sucks... reali... things jus doesn't seem to go on well tis few yrs..losing hope on my life alrdy... hope things will turn out well aftr my o's... reali hope...
will i find my new love again..???