jus bcoz ting~ asked mi to come update den i did so.. see so good rite.. omg!! wad a good girl.. havent been coming online and update and stuffs as i havent been on the mood.. was facing pretty much problems.. be it relationships.. or wadever.. seen mi crying.. good fer u.. haven seen it.. good fer mi.. i look terrble when i cry.. omg!!! damn.. haa.. hmm.. tis few daes was lik shit fer mi.. was living in a masked life.. everything on the surface seemed so normal.. deep inside everything was cha0s... i was feeling terible but.. i was reali touched yst... during assembly.. my dearest fang fang actually knew wad i was suffering deep inside.. she knew.. she asked mie.. i din sae anything my tears said it all.. i reali felt lik hugging her.. she's the onli one tat asked how i was feeling.. reali.. onli she knew how and wad was happening deep inside mie.. meiyi din.. not tat i noe... she's got her probs as well.. jaime.. she din too.. same her probs.. we 3 hav our probs tis daes.. why so suay.. at this tym.. omg!!!! damn.. now my probs are settled.. both of dem not yet.. but i believe soon.. i'm gonna cherish him more..much much more.. reali.. i almost lost him tis tym.. i dun lik the feeling.. reali.. it sucks.. felt reali bad... was reali living in a veri lonely world.. nobody understand.. nobody to confide.. totally no one.. i love him.. reali love him...

now i wana avoid him and her.. him cause i dun wana hurt him.. i dun wana cause more and more misunderstandings... he's totally veri innocent he doesn't seem to understand wad i wana tell him.. i guess during tis few daes he's been treating mi too well.. and i've been giving in as i was feeling terrible.. den caused him to misunderstand my meaings.. duno how to tell him.. i will find a suitable tym and explain everything to him.. hope he'll understand.. onli my closest would noe who... another her is.. she's the one who cause mi and dardar to quarrel these daes.. i wana avoid her.. being with her makes mi feel unsecure abt mi and him.. she cause mi worries abt mi and him.. i wana avoid her.. reali she's making mi worry abt my dream.. she might just shatter my dream again.. she's making all these fer mi.. i will start to hate her in tym to come.. soon.. reali soon... omg~~ so poor thing... but too bad she caused mi to tink lik tat...