on my way to ECP~~
kenneth~~ he's so adorable.. 220406..
went east coast todae.. also to destress myself.. go and play.. den enjoyed myself though.. i'm all red now.. haa.. so shiok.. haa.. den met this small lil boi.. he's called kenneth. he's five.. took a pix of him though.. wanted to take with him but din get the chance he was so busy building sandcastles.. haaa.. he attracted mi to him bcoz he's got long black eyelashes.. even longer den mine.. omg!! and he's onli 5!!!! haaa.. so adorable.. haa.. how i wish i can bring him home.. jaaa.. i din.. and i couldn't.. sadddd.... -0-
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the end of my recent commitment.. we decided tat we've to leave each other and we noe why.. i was reluctant but still aftr thinking fer awhile.. i came to be more realistic.. i decided to let go.. it's onli best lik that .. theres no point in continuing it.. i've always emphasised that i dunch lik forced love.. till now.. i believe and go with it.. if it's over, it's reali over... no restart in it.. jus lik a game that u play, once it's game over, it's game over. u can't restart it with the points that u earned.. even if u restart u'll restart with totally nothing.. tats it.. it goes the same for relationships.. i've learnt to become more sensible .. learnt to be strong.. learnt many many things. realised that ppl do care for mi.. they adore mi.. i'll not give up on myself bcoz of such trival matters now, i'll jus have to bring back myself frm him.. i nid tym.. we're still frens jus lik before.. we jus nid tym to get over it.. at least i know myself.. btrice will bring herself back.. she will and she'll succeed!!!!
pic taken with toffee >the poochie<>
wif toffee again.. he's so happie.. omg~~
my bro and toffee.. omg they hav a reflection!!!
jus bcoz ting~ asked mi to come update den i did so.. see so good rite.. omg!! wad a good girl.. havent been coming online and update and stuffs as i havent been on the mood.. was facing pretty much problems.. be it relationships.. or wadever.. seen mi crying.. good fer u.. haven seen it.. good fer mi.. i look terrble when i cry.. omg!!! damn.. haa.. hmm.. tis few daes was lik shit fer mi.. was living in a masked life.. everything on the surface seemed so normal.. deep inside everything was cha0s... i was feeling terible but.. i was reali touched yst... during assembly.. my dearest fang fang actually knew wad i was suffering deep inside.. she knew.. she asked mie.. i din sae anything my tears said it all.. i reali felt lik hugging her.. she's the onli one tat asked how i was feeling.. reali.. onli she knew how and wad was happening deep inside mie.. meiyi din.. not tat i noe... she's got her probs as well.. jaime.. she din too.. same her probs.. we 3 hav our probs tis daes.. why so suay.. at this tym.. omg!!!! damn.. now my probs are settled.. both of dem not yet.. but i believe soon.. i'm gonna cherish him more..much much more.. reali.. i almost lost him tis tym.. i dun lik the feeling.. reali.. it sucks.. felt reali bad... was reali living in a veri lonely world.. nobody understand.. nobody to confide.. totally no one.. i love him.. reali love him...
now i wana avoid him and her.. him cause i dun wana hurt him.. i dun wana cause more and more misunderstandings... he's totally veri innocent he doesn't seem to understand wad i wana tell him.. i guess during tis few daes he's been treating mi too well.. and i've been giving in as i was feeling terrible.. den caused him to misunderstand my meaings.. duno how to tell him.. i will find a suitable tym and explain everything to him.. hope he'll understand.. onli my closest would noe who... another her is.. she's the one who cause mi and dardar to quarrel these daes.. i wana avoid her.. being with her makes mi feel unsecure abt mi and him.. she cause mi worries abt mi and him.. i wana avoid her.. reali she's making mi worry abt my dream.. she might just shatter my dream again.. she's making all these fer mi.. i will start to hate her in tym to come.. soon.. reali soon... omg~~ so poor thing... but too bad she caused mi to tink lik tat...
the sweetest things a guy could to to his gal... <3>
Talk to her in movie theatres....
Hold her hand while u talk....
Tell her shes beautiful....
Look her in the eye when u talk to her....
Tell her stupid jokes....
Let her mess with ur hair....
Just walk around wit her....
Look at her like shes the only girl you see...
Tickle her Even if she says stop....
When she starts swearing at u,tell her u love her....
Let her fall asleep in ur arms....
Get her mad,then kiss her....
Tease her...Let her tease u back....
kiss her enough, but dont over kiss her....
Stay up wit her all night when she's sick....
Watch her favorite movie....
Kiss her forehead....
Write her letters....
if she asks u 2 go 2 a show with her,go....
Let her wear ur clothes.....
When shes sad,hang out with her....
Buy her ice cream....
Let her take all the photos of u she wants....
Kiss her in the rain....
And when u fall in love with her tell her
din go sch todae... so boring at hm.. reali tired.. totally no strength.. head also damn pain.. duno wad's wrong with mie.. hope i'll recover soon.. veri tired.. must recover.. must.. quickly... mummy call mie go see chinese doc but the shop nvr open.. so sian diao.. omg!! i so suay sia.. damn
it!!! gonna slack at hm liao...
my MC!!!!
farid when he came up to pass my homework.. ended up glued to my labtop..
my medician.... yucks... they cause mi to breathe with difficulty and cause stomach ache
THE star chris folded fer mi at the clinic..
the star again...
reach hm.. slack on the fone wit jaime awhile den farid called.. he gotta pass mi my ss ws... den he slack at my place till abt 1900.. abt 1 hr la.. haa... took a pic of him though.. funny man!! haa... haven taken my med.. gonna take it aftr my dinner... haaa..
when i was on the way to chinese garden park...
feeling a lil bored so did my fav pasttym.. take pix.. -0-..
arghgh!!! firstly wana wish my dearest yew on a big -haapie bdae- haaa... having damn bloody fever todae.. omg.. aftr going to dar's place slack the whole dae der went hm was alrdy feeling veri tired.. den had symtoms of fever.. but din bother much.. den when wake up todae was feeling even worst.. s0 went to check my temp. guess how much was it?? 38.8deg.. omg!! wad the hell!! when i was in dar's place he was jus asking my i was lik so warm.. den ask if i had fever.. but i said no.. cox i reali was feeling fine.. den aftr tat.. when we were walking back to my place, was feeling damn cold out of a sudden.. den i din tink too much either.. den din wana tell dar ys too cox he's gonna go celebrate his bdae... den dun wana make him worry too.. wana let him enjoy his tym.. now.. he's sliping lik piggy.. haaa... went walk walk todae.. had some fresh air.. din wana stay hm den make myself more lethagic.. so went to the chinese garden park to walk walk.. took some pics.. haaa.. omg.. the place is pretty nice.. but a lil boring though.. haa.. ya.. dunch even noe if i'm gonna go sch tmr.. if i'm gonna go see doc i'll most prob go myself.. -0- sad.. dar has to book in den can't go wit mi.. hais.. sadden... we shall see..