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will there be a dae where i'll be happie >all dae?<

Friday, June 10, 2005 // 9:58 AM

i remember telling myself tat no matter wad happens i hav to make wadever tat is unhappie into a happie thing.. i've reali tried very hard to promise myself this bud i dunch noe why i still can't make myself do wad i promised... i reali can't seem to do it myself.. i feel all mo frens ard mie ar.. making mie feel veri *extra* between dem?? i can't see why i'm feeling this way.. reali feel i'm veri different frm a normal person.. i hav a veri nice family.. all of dem care for mie.. hav veri gud frens.. they noe when i'm sad and stuff.. bud i feel veri indebted to dem?! having the feeling tat i feel tat i shldn't be hanging out with dem?? everydae i can't seem to feel totally happie without any troubles, frustrations, everything.. i dunch noe.. all these seem to be hanging ard mie all the tym and also everydae.. i dunch noe if i'll ever be happie again.. i reali envy all the children.. all the kids and babies.. because they are alwaes sho0 happie smiling.. laughing ard... they hav no worries at all.. sho0 adorable and most of all they hav the m0st carefree mind.. without any worries.. so nice.. how i wish i can become a baby again.. reali wish i could... reali wish... > > > >